It was a Bust!!!

Ok, you know that whole gym thing? Well......not gonna happen. Everywhere is so expensive that it would cost me 3 months of saving to pay for 3 months at the gym. Plus the starting fee! It was ridiculous! And we were searching online for different gyms near us and they all had bad reviews! Sooo, not really gonna happen.

We finally have internet at the house and it's great! It seems that when our internet is actually working, it's really fast and it works really well. But now that we have the computer working, all my stuff is gone! I am freaking out because the stories that I've written are all gone! Even my journal is 'poof' gone. I will have to start over. I like to think that I can use this as my journal, I mean isn't that what it is? I get on here and I talk about my feelings and my past, future, and present, and that's just a nice thing to have. There may not be a lot of people seeing this, or reading this but I'm ok with that becaue then it's more personal, it's not just me trying to get people to see me, to know me, and to think I'm great. Everyone has different versions of what a good person acts like. I want to be a good person and I finally think that's possible. I think this is the happiest moment for me of today.

People think that their life is over, that they would rather die then deal with tomorrow. I'm one of those people more often then I like to admit but I find that you can find amazing things in the most depressing times. You may think that a rainy day is a bad omen. But I have a million times more fun playing in the rain then I do on a grey day. To feel the pitter patter of raindrops on your skin. To taste the freshness of water that isn't contaminated. It makes you realize that the world is alive and always showing it' feelings. Even on the worst day you can be the happiest person in the world. It's possible and I do it all the time.