Hya!

    Thanks for the comments, it is really sweet of you guys to give me advice. I mean, that's kind of what I was hoping would happen if I told people my issues. (trust me, I have a lot of them) Anyway, I don't think Court read the message yet so I am trying to stay secluded and wait.
    My plan to be by myself isn't working too great. I m pretty sure that my friends understand, it's just that we are so used to texting each other and calling each other when we have exciting news and when something big happens that they kind of forget that we aren't supposed to talk. I should be angry but I find it kind of endearing.:) They at least remember not to come to my house to hang out. And I think it is really sweet of them to have paid enough attention to what I told them that they remember not to ask me to hang out, or to come over because they know how hard it is for me to say no.
    I kind of have this serious fear of making people mad.:( When my cousins ask me to babysit their kids I have to say yes. I literally have to or else I cry. I only feel like I can say no to people if I have a legitimate reason. Like say; if I already promised I would go somewhere, or I already promised someone I would meet up with them for something. But if not, I almost always say yes. I also have this thing where....even though I need money, and even though I want to get paid for babysitting the kids in my family I hate asking to get paid. And I really don't like it because people are always telling me I'm selfish and mean, but I feel horrible when I ask to get paid for my work. I always feel like I am taking money away from the family.
    I will try to post often and thanks for the comments. I hope more people get interested in my blog.:) Thanks Everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!