Today, tomorrow, and part of Saturday I will not be around my friends. I have been spending so much time with them lately that I have not been able to spend any time alone, it is driving me crazy. I am afraid that the next time I am around my friends without a break I will explode at one of them, I don't want to lose my friends because of that. But I feel like I can e-mail them, it is something that I am good at, what with typing out stories. Anyway, I sent an e-mail to my best friend Becca, explaining why this was the only way I could talk to her and I hope she understands. But I also sent one to Court, you remember her?
I have been feeling so horrible about myself lately because every time I talk to her I bite down on what I really think. So I sent her an e-mail, I put in it what I was actually feeling. And that is a lot, I tried to tell her about how she treats me. See my friendship with Court was kind of forced on me. One day she doesn't know who I am, the next she thinks I am her best friend and she never wants to leave my side. I like Court, but I don't like the way she treats people, I don't like the way she acts around me, and I don't like the way she thinks of me. She uses me as an excuse around her dad, he thinks I am a good influence so he lets her go anywhere she wants to just because I am with her. She has been crowding me all the time. I don't like it at all. In the e-mail I tried to explain these things to her, and I am pretty sure she will hate me forever. But I don't know if that is a bad thing,
I mean of course I don't want her to hate me, but I don't think I want to be her friend. If she doesn't change I won't be. Normally I would never ask anyone to change for me but she needs to if she wants me to be her friend. I hope you guys understand. And it might ruin my life because I know she has a lot of friends, and if she says bad things about me she can make my life a lot worse then it already is. But I can live with not being her friend. She doesn't deserve it if she is going to treat me like crap.
Dear Tleithi,
ReplyDeleteI'm sure they will understand, you need time to your self too. It's good that you told Court that she needs to treat people better. If she dosn't change then you do what you do and don't look back. Hopefully she sees wat she is doing wrong and changes them or she might get hurt. If she does get mad at you and hates you then you are better off without her. You have other friends that love you and care way more about you. If she doesn't change don't waist your time on her. If she gos and spreads lies about you your friends will deniy them. If a person who doesn't care about you and treats you like shit doesn't want to be your friend anymore try not to feel like your world is coming to an end you have other friends which love and care for you. Hope you get through this. With both of your friends.