I feel like I'm dying.... I haven't seen Aj in such a long time. I think I really am going to die. I know it's stupid but I odn't feel safe unless I'm around him. I have such horrible nightmares, and daymares. I feel so sick sometimes, and all I can think about is needing him. I miss him so much, I even got him a christmas present. I don't get to see my dad this year for christmas cus' my mom can't afford it. I need Aj, I need him so much. If I don't see him soon I think that I might actually die.In the literal way! I just feel so tired, like I'm going into a coma.