Talking my friend out of Suicide.

Yah it hasn't been great. This morning I got up early, and that's never fun. But I did pretty well and it wasn't so bad until I got to lunch. Tali and Aj are officially broken up. In the permanent way. Talia broke up with Aj and he didn't come to school today. Talia says he was "sick" but apparently he was sick. I asked him today on facebook if he was really sick, and he said his temp was like 102 this morning. So I'm glad he stayed home, I hope he gets better.
Speaking of getting better. He's really upset about Talia, at first he pointed how how they are gonna stay friends and how they still hung out. Then he got progressively worse. He keeps trying to talk to her, even though I told him he needs to leave her be for a while. She got upset and told him to go kill himself.
Aj is overly emotional about almost everything, he took that literally. So I spent like 2 hours trying to convince him to put it out of his mind. And it really upset me. I almost cried like 4 times, it's really scary when people do that and you can't hug them or look them in the eyes. It's happened so often to me, with Alex and Becca and Aj. I can't keep doing it. It hurts too bad.
I asked him to please put it out of his mind, for me. And he said "idk" my word for word answer was "Not even for me? I've known you for how long? We've been friends for years. Please." I can't believe I mean so little to him, I know he is upset, but it hurts so bad that he knows how badly he's scaring me and how worried I am and he just says "Idk". It hurts a lot.
Also earlier today in gym I pulled a muscle. It hurts so bad! I did sit-ups and push-ups with it and it was painful. Not as painful as it could be, but was still bad. As soon as my legs stop being sore from running the mile I pull a muscle. Ow. Why does my life suck?
Then I was stressed as it was, and I wanted to tell my mom but she wanted to go to bed. And I was going to practice my violin but I was busy talking to Aj and then I couldn't find my music. I almost cried in front of my mom but I knew how tired she was so I held it in until I was in my room, then I cried for a while. Thai kept me company and helped me de-stress. After I was more calm I finally found my music and practiced for about 20 minutes.
I have such bad days sometimes, sometimes they're ten times worse than today. But I've never actually thought of killing myself, I know I'm too much of a coward for it, and it would be useless, I would probably fail and just cause my family a lot of worry and bills. I don't understand how people can be so sad and feel so hopeless that they would want to die. I get upset too, to the point where I can't even talk. And I cry. I cry a lot, more than people know. I can bring on tears very easily. But I've never actually wanted to hurt myself.
I don't know how people can think of that. If I asked my mom she would say that I'm strong and I know that it's not the answer, but Aj's one of the strongest people I know, and he knows it's not the answer. But still he thinks about it. I don't understand. I don't think I ever will. I want to help him so badly, but there's nothing I can do. I just get to sit here and type "I'm sorry" as many times as I can, and give him advice that he probably has heard before that means nothing like "Things will get better in time" and "I know you're hearts broken, but it will heal, give it time." and "Give her space and time, she's hurt and needs to think. Don't pressure her." He doesn't actually listen to that last one and I just wish he would. He wants her to forgive him now. He wants to talk to her now. he wants her to know how much he loves her and how he wants to change and make her happy. When she doesn't want that. She wants to be done with him, she's done with the drama.
 I do know how Talia feels. I do know that she just wants the drama to end. Her and Aj have fought so many times and he says he's changing, but he is too protective and controlling. I understand that, that's why I still want to be her friend.
He's just so eager to fix things. He thinks he's so damaged, but he's not. He just needs to give her time and think about why she wanted to end it. But if I try to tell him that he doesn't understand. :(
I suck at being a friend. :'( All I wanna do is help, and I can't. UGH!!!!!!
I'm going to bed, I'm so tired.