Backstabbing

I don't have a huge amount of real friends, most of the people I know stay aquaintences. Usually the friend group includes Becca, Katie, Courtney, Alex, Dustin, & Aj. Now that group contains, Dustin, and Katie. That's it. They are the only ones that haven't totally pissed me off and been horrible friends. Dustin texts me all the time, and we talk for a long time, and he actually listens to me. Katie empathizes and is cool to talk to. But everyone else I just want to erase from my life!

Courtney keeps telling me what I am feeling, and complaining all the time, and hurting guy's feelings, and treating everyone like shit. It's so messed up! I can't even talk to her! She is acting so bi-polar! I see her in the halls and she is laughing and totally ignoring me, then I go to my locker and she comes up to me practically bawling about being lonely because everyone hates her! She wonders why! I am just tired of talking to her!
Becca has been a total bitch to me every single day I've known her! Yah, she's been there when I needed her occasionally, but that doesn't make up for constantly bossing me around. All she ever does is tell me to stop. Last night she kept screaming at me to stop messing around with her sister Tiffany, we were both laughing and having fun and not hurting anything. And she was just playing on her computer, then she starts yelling that we need to just fucking stop it, it's annoying!! Then today she kept telling me not to touch her, to give her her space, and she kept telling me to stop moving, and stop talking, and stop going near her. Well I left her house, I hope that's enough space for her.

Then there is Aj, he and I have been argueing, and I just want to go back to when we were friends. But everything is ruined now, he barely speaks to me, and he never answers my texts. It's not like I text him day and night trying to get an answer, but every couple days I ask him if he is willing to talk to me. No answer. I don't know what do to! I didn't even do anything to make him mad at me, except like him, and I never let that get between us, but he did.

All of this is not mentioning Alex. She is constantly have boy issues, and I feel bad for her. But she is almost worse than Courtney. One day she is hugging me and we are normal, then next she won't speak to me and walks away from me in the halls. A few minutes ago I was talking to her on facebook and she was upset, I asked what was wrong and she broke up with her boyfriend. She thought he was cheating on her, I asked her why she thought that and she said she didn't know. She breaking up with him was an accident, and I told her to tell him that. She said she couldn't because he hated her. I told her I didn't know what to do. The next thing she says is that this guy Morgan is a better friend than me. For no fucking reason!!!!!! I mean wtf!

Cheerleading is so hard right now, and my brain is so fried! I get up at 5:30, get ready and am on my way to the high school by 6:15. I have practice tryouts from 6:30 to 7:30. Then I go straight to school until 3:15, after that I go home and if it's Tuesday I have to do my catecism then when I go to it at 5:30 I stay there until 7:00, which means that once I get home I have no luxury time, I usually take a bath and by the time I am done with changing and getting ready for bed it is 9:30. Then I get to go on the computer and enjoy myself a little. I usually don't get to bed until 11. On days I don't have catecism the schedule is the same except instead of doing my homework then going to catecism I usually end up staying home cleaning. I am so burnt out!! Hopefully tonight I wil be able to enjoy myself and relax.

I know I am complaining a lot, but life is full of complaining. Now that I have comlained once, I am done for a while. I need to go before I start complaining about global warming.