He knows...

So last night, I was talking to Aj on Facebook. It was normal stuff, about how he and Talia hung out and how he still really cares about her. When out of nowhere he askes, "How long have you liked me?"

WHAT? This came from nothing, there was no leading into it. He just randomly said it. So I asked him what he meant, and he tells me 'everyone' keeps saying I've admitted to liking him. Yah, 'everyone' said that. Suurrreee. *cough* Becca *cough* And I ask him if he really wants the truth. And when he says yes, I spill.

I told him almost everything! How when I met him I hated him, then we were friends, then I got a little crush on him, that grew into a huge crush, and how I fell for him after my accident when he said he liked me and we held hands, then how I was heartbroken because he got back with Talia, but I realized I needed to get over him. Then I sneekily said that I 'did my best', instead of saying I was over him. And he read the whole thing. We had this, not exactly emotional, but it was a long conversation about how we felt. We aren't dating or anything, but I thought for a while he was going to ask me out.

It turns out that when I thought he was pretending, he actually did like me. But he didn't ask me out because he was worried he would hurt me. Then after Becca pestered me I got the courage to ask him what would have happened if we HAD dated. He said that he would try to treat me well, but he would probably mess up by getting too close. At first I asked him why getting close was bad and then he said "No, I mean that I would probably try to grab your ass or something and I know you wouldn't like that and I'd do something stupid." I laughed my butt off reading that.

But really, it felt good knowing that I wasn't wrong about him liking me before. That I read the signs right for once. And it was nice that he knew how I had felt about him. After that though was when I started thinking he wanted to date me. He kept asking about how my mom would react to me dating him, first he thought I had told her about how I liked him, (which I most certainly did NOT) Then he asked if she would even let me date him, and when I told him that if I ever got a boyfriend she would want to meet him and would sit down and talk to me about dating and he said the most awkward thing. "She's already met me though." How was I supposed to respond?! So instead I told him an equally awkward story about my sister pretending I was pregnant and he was the father and how she said she would , "fuck that boy up". So I made him feel wierd right back. Revenge is best served in Times New Roman. :D

And the entire time we had this conversation, Becca was talking to me in another chat, telling me to ask him out, telling me this was our moment. How we were so perfect for each other, and how it just had to work out. She even tried bribing me, saying that if I asked him out, whether he said yes or no, she would help me clean my house. She's been having guy troubles, so I think she was trying to live vicariously through Aj and I.

Anyway, near 11 I knew I had to go to bed. But I had one last question for Aj. I wanted to be sure that just because we had this talk, it wouldn't make anything awkward. And thank God it didn't. Today he was completely normal and I got multiple hugs. :D I like hugs. But not from other people. When I told Becca that Aj planned to grow his beard back and that I would soon be hanging with furry Aj again, she said that I have a thing for father figures. Creepy much? I do not! I have a thing for strong, warm, masculine, cute, and nice guys. I also have this thing for brown hair, it's hot. And so is intelligence, I will not marry someone who is not intelligent. Stupid people beware.

So that's my love life. Nonexistant, it was actually more plausible for me to get a boyfriend a year ago when I was like 2 inches shorter, and had all fat, no muscle. How screwed up is that? Anyway! I go.......to pinterest, twitter, youtube, and charlie mcdonnell's website for Doctor Who music. :D Night all.