Feeling conflicted

So last night was another teen dance, I didn't go to the last one so I was excited about this one. I put on makeup, I straightened my hair, I wore nice clothes. And in the beginning I was really enjoying myself. I was at the front of the crowd so I got in pretty fast, and Becca's little sister Tiffany was following me like a baby duck. We dance for a while and laughed a lot, and even though Aj was there with Talia I found it really easy to ignore them and have fun. But then things started going bad.

These girls from school kept walking by me and pushing me, they called me names and acted really stupid. At first I found it funny that they were making such fools of themselves, but then they started to make me mad. And then the songs started getting sucky, and I started to get bored. Also, Katie was Dustin's date to the dance and that started to depress me. Plus my friends were ignoring me. So naturally I started to get depressed. I sat on the bleachers for a while, just being bored. As time went on I got more depressed, I felt really awkward and so I was as stiff as a board. Then I started wanting to cry because Aj and Talia kept walking in front of me and making out. It was gross and upsetting. Then Dustin and Katie started to be all cuddly. Things just got worse.

After a while of me trying not to cry Becca came up and pulled me out to dance, I felt better for a total of 10 seconds. She got me out there and danced with me, then she just walked away. I kept feeling so awkward around all these couples. Everyone was happy except me. About two songs before the end of the dance I just left. I sat under a tree untill everyone was outside and going home. Becca didn't come looking for me, no one did. She just texted me to go to the car. Then I spent the night and everyone was upset. Tiffany's ex got another girlfriend and it made her upset, Becca just felt upset to feel upset. And I was depressed over Aj and Dustin. Becca and I talked until like 2 in the morning before we passed out. During that time I was texting Dustin, we were just having normal conversation until I stupidly brought up me liking guys.

He asked me who I liked and then he guessed that it was him. I am really happy that he didn't feel wierd about it. He said it was because most of his friends that were girls had crushes on him. So we kept talking until I think he passed out. Cus he stopping answering me. I was ok with it.

So I slept late this morning, till' around 10. After I got up I went downstairs and Becca, me and Tiffany watched tv and played on the computer for a while. I got bored, so I had pizza then walked home. Now I feel good. But I have to get off because my sister wants on. She isn't making life better, she is basically just being annoying. I am going to go and see how long this ok feeling will last. :)

Luv you guys, have a good day.