Itunes

I wanna Ipod, and I wanna be rich, cus there are like a million songs that I want off of Itunes so bad! But see my mum would never allow me to do anything like that because we are poor. And I know I can easily live without it but it is natural for people to want things. Those that don't want things, get really bored I'm sure. I love life, I love music, I love people, I love nature. I don't know why I am being so random but the music I was listening to made me rather hyper. So now the happiness comes in waves!

I have a question for all the girls out there. Am I the only girl who sometimes wishes her boyfriend would sing a love song to her? I mean, I don't have a boyfriend, but I wish a guy liked me well enough to sing to me. I know it's wierd, and people usually only burst out singing about their feelings in the movies, but I just think that would be so romantic! I just hope that if it did happen I liked the guy back. I just think that music says things so much better than words. I want some gorgeous guy that I am in love with to sing to me about how much he cares, then take me for a walk. I don't have any idea why I want that but I do. So............yep.

Does anyone read these posts anymore? I must be really bad at what I am doing. I just wanna write, I write stories but then give up. I write songs, but don't know the notes, and give up. I sing, I play violin, I read all the time. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't want to be a teacher, I don't think that I really want to be a famous author, I couldn't make it as a singer because I don't have my own songs, I definetly couldn't be a dancer, and I don't wanna be. I don't know what I DO want to be!!!! This is so confusing! How am I supposed to know what classes to take in high school? How am I supposed to know what activities to do, and what things to expect, or read up on? I am just so confused! All I know is I love to listen to music, write bits and pieces of stories, read books, and basically be a bum. The only thing I am really good at and I know I want to be is a mom. But that usually requires marriage, or adoption. And in order to do that I probably need a job.

I don't konw what to do and I just get to hope that like in the movies, I will find the one thing I want to do for the rest of my life. And that I will someday meet the best guy in the entire world, that loves me for who I am and will love me forever. Dammit life is gonna suck for me.