Short, but sweet

I'm just making a quick post before I go to bed.

I'm listening to music on Pandora, like I always do, and I am feeling unhappy about D. But not just about him, it's more about me. I am upset that I am so gullible, I wish I didn't fall for guys. It would make life so much more simple. I don't know how to read messages, I don't know how to flirt, I don't know how to get guys to like me.

My friends tell me that I am a total flirt because I am always laughing around guys, I laugh because they are funny and totally ridiculous. They say I am flirting because I am smiling, I smile because I want to, not for them. They say that I am such a pretty girl, but I'm not. I know I'm not. They are only saying that because it's their responsibility as a friend. I almost wish they never complimented me, it hurts more than if they were silent.

I have to go to sleep, this week if all goes well, I get to see D every single day for one reason or another. I don't care about having classes with him, I just want to see his face every now and then.